Love Me...Know Me

Dear Bev,

I walk over the earth. Searching for one to call my own

I am not in the wind my dear,

Neither am I on the streets

I am the Still voice when you are all alone

Naked and ashamed

I am the hush voice begging you to let go

I am the one who holds you tight

Searching for You

Longing for you to hear me

All i need is for you to Love me

To do so with your whole heart

To serve me, with your all life

To seek me, with your everything

To let go of the altars you have created

To forget the distance between the altar and the door

That though it tarry, it is coming

I cry out in the silence

Longing for you to give it all to me

Love me with your all

Crush the gods that have created a kingdom in your life

Call upon my Helper to fight the battles for you.

When were these battles fought by blood and sweat and won?

My Child,

Be still and know that I stand for you.

I love you,

Even before you were born

I loved you with my tears, with my sweat

With my blood, with my life

That you may live Bev

Hold on, Hold on.

I will Rise

Rock Bottom, they call it

When you hit your lowest and you would love to rise,

There seems no strength in you to rise

Rise to your dream's path

Rise to your calling and to your purpose

When all you see is a dim light ahead

And sometimes it gets pitch black

Rock bottom, i have found myself in

Jesus, I need to rise

I need to live

For what is it for me to gain the whole world and lose my soul

I have lost indeed.

Lord, i want to rise as you have risen

I need to glorify your name

To know not the end of your kingdom

No power can stand against You Lord

Lord Lift me Up

I want to testify your goodness Lord

Lift Me up Lord

I want to rise like Christ was lifted up.

I want to live beyond my human body form

Lord, I want to Rise.

I want to live in You.

Finding My Window

I hope the days come easy Lord

I hope life gets bearable

I hope when the doors keep shutting on my face

When the darkness is overwhelming

When all seems cold outside

I hope I keep walking Lord

Till I find my window Lord

Show me the comfort of Heaven Lord

Teach me the peace that surpasses human understanding

Walk with me Lord

As I trample on scorpions and snakes

As the stormy seas wage war Lord

May I find your grace with every step Lord

More than anything Father

May I find my window of hope

May I find you Lord amidst all these Father

Till then Lord

I keep walking

Till the battle ends

Till the light shines

Till I testify Lord.


*This post is an encouragement to my family. We have fought numerous battles, but we keep walking till we find our window. Jehovah sees, Jehovah knows and one day Brian shall be 100% well and have a normal life....Till Then Jesus...Till Then.

You Were There

I wonder how it felt when Peter walked on water for the first time

I wonder how it felt for Moses to address the Israelites while stammering

I wonder how it felt to see the Red Sea part

How did David feel when he faced Goliath

Did he shrink....did his heart beat faster

Did he know You were there

I wonder how it must have felt when David faced the enemies

You were there, You were there

You are there when the fight seems so hard

You are always there.

So I will stand upon the hill

Face my goliath

Because I know sovereignty has bigger plans for me

You are there in the amidst of the unclear

When things do not make sense

When I see my enemies on both sides

When my tears are my pillow

When I am between thick and thick

So I will hang on

For on the Cross you chose me

For every whip, for every tear

So I will trust you Lord

For you are always here.

When sickness thrives

When families are at the briedge of divorce

When school fees is scarce

When there is no way out

When the Devil is always here

You will always be there

When we go hungry

When we are broken Lord

Through it all,

You will always be there.

You promised Lord.

Till the end of time.

So I will hold on tight Lord.

So tight.

Amen.

Don't Try so Hard

Another day comes

And you just want to breathe

But you want to push on and shine

Shine brighter

So we keep on pushing harder and harder

For we aim to be better at what we do, what we portray

We try too hard

Too hard that we forget what it means to breathe in and out

We forget the beauty of the seasons- summer, winter, spring and autumn

We forget birds chirp,

We forget friends laugh & hug

We forget love is sweet

We keep thinking we are not yet worth it.

We push on, and on

Till we cannot push on anymore.

Don't try so hard.

It is okay not to try so hard.

We learn from our mistakes

We are lovely even with our scars.

Keep on keeping on

But do not try to measure up till we forget that we are good enough.

Take time to fail, miss the mark

Take time to cry it away, laugh it away

God gives us grace, we do not earn it.

Do not beat your self about life and everything that's life

You are lovely!

Do not try so hard.

I hope this encourages someone.

Blessings.

Meet me at the Well

I am waiting for you my dear

Waiting for you to come

To come to the place of life in its abundance

I have watched you take up rough roads,

Carry heavy burdens

Get confused at cross roads

Sometimes, you have doubted the power in you

I have called you.....come meet me...

But the conversations of life have swallowed my whisper in the wind

The louder i called unto you, the louder the music of life became

I have seen you sweat on my behalf

I have seen you moving mountains on my behalf

Child, let me be God and let you be man

So meet me at the well

Drink the living water

Where there is life in its fullness

Meet me at the well,

Jew or Gentile, Sinner or saint, man or women

I created them all.

Come meet me at the well Child

I want to carry your burden.

For I did not take in the whips at the cross,

So that you can carry the world on your head.

Let me be Your God

Meet me at the well.

Love,

God

Take it from here Lord

Oh My! Oh My!

These are those times that you wish this post had a voice over

For sometimes words needs to carry the heaviness of the heart

Words need to capture the heart

They need to go beyond the computer's screen

Connect to the reader and his heart

For out of the wellness of the heart, lies life's decisions.

We have tried so hard to get there

There are times we have gotten close to 'there'

And even when we got there, we wondered is this there?

For the heart could not find the fulfilment of there

We have to reach a point where we tell God, kindly take it from here

Take it from me Lord.

Jesus take the wheel

I cannot take it anymore

He knows best and He holds our world together

So I quit trying

Trying so hard to be my own God

To be man and to be creator at the same time

I choose to stick to my jurisdiction.

Lord, take it from here

I want to be man

So I let you be God.

I Want to Find Him Again

I want to find Him again

For I lost Him a midst this rat race of life

Between the hassles of the workplace and the crazy traffics on our roads

I need to find Him again

For I traded our quiet times with the noisy corridors of the streets

I have traded the bonding sessions with the never ending coffee dates

I have forgotten what it means to be captured by Your love

I have abandoned the sweetness of your presence with the pressures of life.

I want to find Him again

For I belonged to Him and Him alone.

For His love I cannot explain.

How did I slip away from the love of my ife

The One who loved me unconditionally

The One who never traded my quiet times with Him any day, anytime

The One who would wrap me in His arms and reassure me its going to be alright

The One who gave Himself for me on the cross

Even when He left Earth, He never left me alone

He sent me a Helper, a friend

I want to find Him again

For to Him I belong.

I want to sit in the park in His presence; so sweet, so peaceful

I want to have coffee with Him in the quietness of His presence

For does He not butter my bread and sugar my tea?

I want to hug Him every morning and evening

I want to appreciate Him more

For He never sleeps nor slumbers on me

I want to find the lover of my soul

For I am nothing without Him.

I am only like grass; my glory is like flowers in the fields

Like grass, I wither

Like a flower, I fall.

Teach me your ways O Lord

That I may find you again.

That I may walk in your knowledge

That I may dwell in Your presence

That I may know You in truth and in Spirit.

I want to find you again Lord

I am tired of being directed to You.

I want to Find You Jesus.

Where will I find You Lord?

Not a midst men!

In Your Word, in prayer, in true worship I will find You Lord.

If He Did It Before

So I came across Tye Tribbet's song If He Did It Before....Same God at a time when I was wondering Lord, is this my Red Sea?

Will My Moses part the Red Sea for me?

Can I still walk on water or will my faith be faint?

Lord, are you still the same God who depleted the Egyptians during the plague season?

But How do I relate to the manna season Lord and I know not what manna is?

How do I relate to the 10 plagues?

How do I see that the same God of David, Moses and Abraham is my God?

God reminded me that I do not have to see manna to believe there is a God.

I do not have to walk on water for me to believe that He exists.

He opened my eyes to the simplest truths..

If He did it before, He will do it again.

For it is the same God right now, the same God of the patriarchs.

The same God who carried me through Campus successfully

Is the same who shall open doors like no other right now

The same God who provides for me, He has done so for 25 years now

Is the same God who will provide my school fees

He is the same God who has set me apart to be peculiar; not of this earth

He is the same God who will give me the strength to be strong and be counted as faithful

Situations change, problems may be magnified

But He is the same God

I know He can do great and mighty things

So I will not sit down and quit

I will not look back in despair less I turn into a pillar of salt

I know my portion.

I will not give up now, I know He will come through for me.

I will face my Goliath with my little stones and a sling like David did,

My dry bones shall arise,

My storm shall be still

Hush devil hush!

Before your very own eyes,

I know He can do it again.

So be encouraged...God never lies...

We have been through worse and we did not come thus far to put a smile on the devil's face.

We are more than conquerors,

If only we believe in the greater name who is in us.

The name is Jesus.

Sweep me away

Sweep me away Lord

Sweep me away in your arms Lord where nothing else matters

For I cannot go on like this

My heart longs for Your presence

Your sweet embrace and your peace that just overflows

Sweep me away Lord

Remind me Lord of who I am in this confusion

Carry me up Lord

Just me and You Lord

Up the mountain

That I may dine with you

That I may sit with you on my Nimbus cloud

That I may shed a tear from sky, no one will ever know Lord

Carry me Lord and sweep me away Lord

For I want to drown in your love Lord

I want to swim in Your care Father

I want to bask in your glory Lord

Sweep me away Lord

Away from myself

For I am my own devil Lord

Just you and me Lord

Just you and me

Erase my unworthiness

Forget my errors Lord

Cover me with your grace

That I may be beautiful before your sight Lord

Sweep me Lord

Just me and You.

I am beautiful when I am at His Feet. :-)