I am at that corner
That dark corner in my life
When my heart is thirsting for more
My tears are flowing
My burble has burst
My corner has been my comfort zone
My world, my small home
Until the Lord exposed me
Naked I stood between who I am and who I used to be
The battle that I refused to face
Have you ever found yourself in the right battle but the wrong battlefield??
When you have to make life changing cut throat decisions
When all your life its been about the whole world and never you
Busy restructuring broken walls
But never rebuilding your own temple?
I am not satisfied with where I am
I need to push myself
I have to lose things/ people I loved to become a better woman as God intended
I know God cares
His faithfulness, wisdom, and strength I doubt not
But I am scared of the stairway
Scared of taking the first step of the journey
I am afraid of the scorn
I am afraid of the unknown
Anyone out there dancing to this tune??
Or at least nodding ones head to this beat!!!
I am scared yet I know this is the path I must take
Its been several months of fighting the battle within
Until God had this to say:
Be still Bev and know that I am God. I am the still voice in your heart. I am the banner over your head. I hold your world in mine hands. Draw close my dear, closer than before. Closer than you have ever been. I will wrap you in my arms and you’ll come forth as gold. Pure gold Bev. Trust my wisdom through this times….Let the world scorn you, let them be separate from you…let them run…for in your solitude, you are not alone. I abide in You. Hold me close my child, and I will reveal the secrets that only kings search out.
So lord, this is my prayer …..Take me to that secret place. the places I have never been and wrap me in your arms lord…Hold me in your arms..kiss me in your arms….soothe me in your arms Lord…guide me in your arms…speak to me on your laps Lord….wrap me to the place of shelter and safety Lord….wrap me in your arms Father.
For there’s nothing as your presence Lord!!!
There are times you have to risk all it takes….the shame, pain, friends etc. to see the King. I am risking all these by following your wisdom Lord. It may not make sense to many now, but someday it will.
Wrap me in your arms Lord and never let me go Father. You are my rainbow Daddy.