I am a fugitive
I keep running and running
I am scared of who I have become
I am wrecked, I am tattered
My life has cracks
My walls are completely destroyed
My temple lies in ruins
My temple is filthy
No room for the King
For how many men have walked over me
How many have had the pleasure of deflowering me
I let myself too loose
Nothing worthy about me
I am your rebound woman, your doormat, your pick-up girl
I am your second option
My reflection in the mirror kills me, haunts me
Sunday’s sermons crash me
Heard the pastor say that my body is the temple of God
And I looked at my cleavage, my miniskirt
My 6inch boots and I thought……no!!!!I carry no image of God.
I swam in alcohol for that gave me self worth
You see in my world self worth for a min is worth the minute of fame
For each morning I awake,
I find a stranger next to me
And it breaks me…
Well, I am running
Running away from an unworthy husband.
A husband who seems not to care
I find solace in the intern employee in my company
He is more caring, my daughter’s age, he has got the stamina
He knows how to rock my world
But each time I see my children
It breaks my heart to see their hope and faith in me
Yet I am a failed wife and mother
I have broken the sanctity of marriage, the confidence in myself and more so I have lost the intimacy with my Lord
I am caged
I am a prisoner of my own world
Well, I try so hard but not hard enough
I trash women like the plastic soda bottles we trash around
I am stuck in my dark cell room
I have done it all…..sex, greed, lust and women/men
I have had threesomes, foursome…..manysomes
I have masturbated,
I have attended orgies
I have changed the women like bedsheets
I have shuffled them like poker cards
I have defiled bodies, broken hearts
I have done it all
What have I left????any treasure???
My penis, my vagina….is like uhuru park
Public property where people do as they please
Or more so, Jevanjee Gardens; Uhuru Park is far well of class
Well, my heart is hurtless, cold and numb
My mind is gone
My conscious is dead!!!!
I am my own prisoner
I wanna run away from me
I want to start all over again
But how???when everyone has branded me
The devil knows me by name
I want out
Out of this misery, lifelessness,hopelessness,numbness,carelessness
LORD I WANT OUT!!!!
It is painful to be me
It is pointless attempting
For my wrecked life is like a magnet
LORD I NEED TO BE FREE
You alone can set me free
It’s been a slow fade…a lost walk in the park
Help me see that I am covered with your fingerprints Lord
Bring out the elegance, the purity, the wisdom you set in me
I am a master-piece of God
But now I am a wrecked sketchy image of me
Lord set me free
Release me from my bondages
I want life and life in abundance
I want out of this life!!!
UNCHAIN ME, I WANT TO START ALL OVER FATHER
God is the potter and we are the clay.He is never too busy, in fact He came for people like us. The drunkards, the prostitutes, the confused, the low, the wreckless….He came for you and me. I don’t care how the devil keeps reminding you of the filth, the power in Jesus’ blood is able to make us white as snow. Remember the adulterous woman caught in the act: Jesus said, let him who is without sin cast the first stone.NO ONE DID. Why??for we are all sinners. Then Christ told the woman, “Neither do I condemn you, GO AND SIN NO MORE” John 8
Here’s your chance today, in your weakness, God is your strength. Don’t try being good, that never works. We need Jesus. the name above all other names. Believe with your heart and confess with your mouth. That’s what salvation is all about.
He who has the Son, has life and he is set free!!!!That is the only way out my dear.
I found my way out of my prison, have you been freed???
Stop listening to the devil and stop running away from the truth.
Be ye separate and set free.
*I have been there and I got out…..so can you my friend.
Let’s go back to our first creator, our God!!!